In fact, I’ve been scared for years. I was introduced to yoga several years ago to help cope with a shoulder injury that never quite healed. After years of physical therapy, yoga finally offered me reprieve from pain and discomfort, and yoga provided the tools for me to truly bring strength and healing to the damage.
It was in 2005 that I attended my first yoga class. I was scared. I was horribly intimidated. Everyone would think I was too fat. Everyone would be world class, professional yogis. The class would be full of snobs.
My fears could not have been further from the truth.
The class was crowded; a beginning series the studio offered for a lower fee than their regular membership classes. I didn’t notice anyone in the class. From the minute our opening pranayama (breathing) exercises began, I was the only person in the class. Both of the studio owners ran the class. One a woman who was upbeat, nurturing, and really brought out the fun in yoga. The other a man who challenged everyone to go just a little bit deeper, stretch a little bit farther, bring the breath in a little more fully.
The only other specific I remember about my first class was the short drive home, and how I thought I should have arranged for someone else to drive me. More than any deep tissue massage could do, my whole body was a pleasant Jello of skin and bones and muscles.
I continued to chase the beginner’s series for several months, dragging friends and lovers along to experience my new love. I knew from that first class that this is something I wanted to do for the rest of my life. This is something I wanted to share with the world.
My affair with yoga has been on an off ever since with a wide range of excuses for why I lack consistency. Every time I started to get close, I would get scared of the unknown.
All of that changes today.
A few weeks ago I decided it was time to get my act together and do what I love. Several friends expressed interest in taking classes with me, so now is just as great a time to start as any. I’ll get some experience teaching and the support will help me get through teaching certification classes.
I’m thrilled about this new journey. I have no idea where it will take me, but I feel good about the future.